Hai I Am Kaliq!

Assalamualaikum and hai!my name is Kaliq Rafael b. Mohd Khairul Afiq. Mumy cal me Kaliq or sometime Raff. Well many people ask anyway what my name really means. Kaliq means creative while Rafael means god has healed in Spanish. And Kaliq is also actually the combination dady's name Khairul Afiq and mummy's name Salina.

By the time I'm invading mummy's space here I am officialy 3months old. Well most of the time I just sleep and drink me milk. Grrrr(pirate sound).

Anyway I live quite far from mum and dad as they have to setle things so that I can live with them comfortably. For the time being I'm staying with my ayah lang and mak yang and my4 cousins.

Well it doesn't matter anyway I'm still the bos whereever I go. Bein grown up is boring! Babies have more fun u see. I just cry and I have everyone to do things for me(don't tell anyone its our secret okay!)

Ok then I have to go. Wish me well and mummy daddy murah rezeki ok so that I can stay with them fast!

Love,
Handsome boy kaliq rafael

This Is A Confession True From MyHeart. I Am Telling All.

I try not to cry every night before I go to sleep as I'm missing Kaliq so much. A part of me is lost. He's been with me all the time but mum and dad got things to settle.

I'm not sure how one can be far from their babies.I'm sure I can't. A friend of mine from the office she's been apart from her baby for quite some time as she's working here and her baby is back with her mom at Jakarta. And I can see that she have a pretty tuff heart. I don't know how she do it at least I can see Kaliq once a week while she can only see her son like 5months once. I see her streght and I develop mine.

Everyday I come back from work I always expect to see him back home. But I know I won't. When he was home all my penat gone away. So I can say its true when people said 'tengok muka anak hilang penat'.

To be honest our life is not in a good place. As Jessie J said 'its all bout the money money money'. And because of our job demand us to work on wekend and late shift till night we have to send him to stay with my sister at Pahang. I went and visit him like once a week if I can. I'm so lucky that I have my sister. My lifesaver. She's wiling to jaga Kaliq for awhile. Wakeup in the middle of the night to make his milk and all as its been a long time that she haven't got a baby. All her children semua dah besar and all girls so a boy would be nice in the family. Plus I know kaliq's be gettin lotsa love there from his cousins and uncle.

I try to take my mind away from him. And wow its not easy. From someone that use to sleep at 12-1am I now sleep at 10pm almost every day. I'm so tired and my mind is elsewhere. Work is the only place that I can make myself busy or have a good laugh. Hubs try to make me feel happy but then I still feel empty. My heart is empty so does our house.

U see when I was pregnant I never think of this. All I know is 'wah seronoknya ada anak' but I never think of the hard part. Being away from him is the biggest test of all. The 2nd thing was of course when he was at the hospital. I'm bless that I have a wonderful family. Kaliq was admitted here in serdang and my famly comes from as far as perak and pahang to visit. But poor hubs not one I repeat NOT ONE of his family come n visit except for his father but him also now stop caring after my hubs mengadu masalah to him.

I'm telling my story as I can't take it anymore. Hubs is a great guy despite his lack of luck. My son bukan kena sakit biasa at that time. He kena pneunomia which is dangerous. Thank you Allah for all the pahala given and giving me the courage to take care of my son during that 7days at the hospital. My mother in law never once call and ask khabar . His cousins who are very close with him also nada! Poor hubs he feels like nobody on his side cares about his son sedangkan this is cucu/cicit pertama on his side. Why and why and why?teruk sangat ke dia? And tell me what did kaliq did to u guys that he deserve this kind of famly. Don't wory my lil man u always have me,daddy,ur cousins,ur aunties,uncles and of course atuk and opah on mummy's side. Mum will teach u what famly really are.

I hope that everything goes well so that we can bring kaliq's back with us. Amin ya Allah. Kaliq,mumy miss u everyday. Every night mumy cries but mumy keep it from dady. Mumy cry slowly so that dady can't hear n he won't be sad too. I mis u so much and I love u more than my nyawa. U are my nyawa.
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Gosh How My Life Change!

berapa lama tak update dah blog ni but still ada urge to do so not for others tapi specifically untuk kaliq for his future reading. gosh my life change so much.there is so many things that i want to share but as for now im with Kaliq.actually at the moment kaliq stay dengan aunty dia (my sister) dekat bentong pahang so that we can setle few things.once its setle than we will bring him back with us.

having a child is not all fun .i mean bukan la its a bad thing.u see when i was pregnant all i can think is " wah happynya nak dapat anak " u know it is soooo amazing to have a child on ur own.but then i forgot the hard part..like when ur child is sick...money issue and such.kena prepare self financially and minda pun kena prepare.to bring a child in this world especially is not all fun.banyak dugaannya yang kita kena betul betul prepare.

u see this handsome boy ..cepat je dah besar!he is currently (by the time im posting this ) 2months and 14 days.moms lil man .i love u.

Pengalaman Bersalin Anak Pertama.

Gambar kat atas ni gambar pertama kaliq.

Dah lama aku nak post pasal pengalaman aku ni. Kalau orang tak baca pun 1hari nanti akan jadi rujukan buat anak tersayang kisah bagaimana aku lahirkan dia.hehe. Aku buat dalam bentuk kronologi chewah senang sikit nak baca.

38weeks 4days
-Masa tuh dah dekat seminggu sakit perut tapi tak boleh nak melepas. Dah macam sembelit. Banyak kali cakap kat Que tapi dia dah biasa dengar aku kompelin tu ni.
-Malam 12hb aku sakit perut memulas2 macam nak period tapi malas nak pergi klinik sebab 14hb checkup dekat Klinik kesihatan. Malam tu jugak aku tak boleh tidur sebab boleh rasa baby dalam perut macam tak bergerak. Que sedap tidur tapi aku duk cuba ketuk perut nak bagi dia respon tapi tak pun. Aku dah start panik tapi decide tunggu siang sebab dia bergerak cuma tak aktif. Mula la kepala duk pikir terbelit ke hape ke.huhu.
-pagi dalam pukul 6am aku kejut Que cakap sakit tapi tak kejut bersungguh kejut biasa je.
-8am lebih Que pergi kerja. Dalam pukul 10am aku sakit sangat pergi toilet nak melepas tak jadi tapi kencing keluar ketul darah sikit. Sakit dah mula tapi tak kerap dan aku tak tau pun yang tuh contraction.
-call mysister before sms Que sebab tak nak dia kelam kabut. Kakak aku pulak cakap kena pergi hospital sebab dah tanda nak bersalin. Dengan tenang aku call Que. Siap cakap don't panic but I need to go to the hospital.
-dalam duk menunggu aku siap bbm,mengemop,bagi kucing makan hehe sebab due date a long way to go and my mind dah stuck dengan cerita pasal false alarm.Plus masa tu baru hari kedua maternity leave. Macam pandai je budak ni nak bagi mummy dia save cuti heh.
-then once Que sampai straight ke Hospital Serdang. Tukar kain batik cek bukaan baru 2cm. They use this tools to check which I hate sebab sakit kot!since baru 2cm the nurse said boleh balik dulu sebab baru sikit. Plus I heard that during that time ward full. Labour room pun full. Ramai sungguh bersalin bulan 12.
-on the way going back the pain was already crucial. Dari dalam 15minit sekali jadi 5 minit sekali. The pain was like having period pain tapi power punya period pain. Masa tu dalam hati dah nak cakap dah dengan Que that I can't handle it anymore tapi macam aku denied yang aku rasa nak bersalin dah.hehe. Kami sempat lagi tu singgah Jco beli donut.
-sampai kat rumah sambil makan donut ni aku duk tahan sakit while Que dah dok bebel ajak aku pergi hospital balik sebab dia tengok aku dah tak tahan sangat. I only tell him just wait until air ketuban pecahla or pergi tanya kat klinik kitaorang selalu pergi dulu macam mana. He went out and ask. Masa tu aku dah memang istifar banyak sebab dah sakit sangat. Dia balik je terus pergi Hospital Serdang balik.
-sampai kat hospital dah bukak 6cm. Macammana dia cek bukaan ni..ha pakai jari seluk ye. Nasib baik semua perempuan dapat lelaki jenis tangan besar ke ha mampus. Masa ni Que kat luar sambil aku duk sakit aku bbm dengan dia. Aku ada jugak mintak penahan sakit sebab dah tak tahan sangat dan aku ingat sampai sekarang nurse tu jawab istifar je dah tak boleh mintak penahan sakit bagai!hehe. Bila aku cakap kat Que dia boleh buat kelakar pasal muka dia bengkak kena elergi ubat lagi. Haih bini tengah sakit dia le kena elergi bagai.huhu.
-time ni aku dah tak menahan dah. Aku dah sakit sangat istifar tak berenti aku rasa macam tak ada siapa peduli. Sudahnya aku jerit lepas tu ada sorang doktor datang..lelaki ye! Cek bukaan dah berapa tah sebab masa tuh dah sakit macam nak meneran sangat sakit lain dah tak rasa dah. Then aku dengar doktor tu jerit 'labour room ready!' Masa dia tolak pergi tu aku dah tak rasa takut ke apa sebab yang aku tau cepatla baby keluar aku dah tak tahan sangat. Kemudian aku dengar nurse jerit panggil Que suruh masuk. Kuasa tuhan ye syurga isteri dibawah tapak kaki suami...aku tengok dia dengan muka bengkak aku jadi tenang...macam kurang sakit..serius tak tipu.
-masuk labour room dia suruh tukar baju kemudian masuk air straight dia suruh push. Que pun tolong cakap kat telinga aku suruh push. Masyaallah Allah maha besar betapa sakitnya masa tu nak push tak boleh!dia ajar pun aku tak boleh nak buat!sampai aku nak menangis nak menjerit! Nurse tu dengan slow cakap dengan aku jangan menjerit menangis..push je yang penting anak. Aku rasa aku dah push habis baby tak nak keluar jugak. Masa tu tak silap dalam pukul 6pm lebih. Lama jugak aku push tau tau dah pukul 7pm lebih.
-sebabkan aku dah tak larat nak push sorang lagi doktor datang untuk vakum. Masa ni Que kena keluar. Dia suruh push habis habis kemudian aku dapat rasa dia sedut baby kemudian potong sikit untuk baby keluar habis...
-then miracle Ya Allah yang aku tak boleh lupa baby keluar warna kebiruan dengan penuh lendir lagi dia letak atas perut aku kemudian dia potong tali pusat. Masa ni aku pegang sikit je dia sebab geli.haha. Kemudian diaorang ambik untuk bersihkan. Masa ni Que cerita dia dah dengar baby nangis dia nak masuk nurse tak kasi tapi lepas bersih diaorang terus kasi baby kat dia untuk diazankan. Masa tu aku tak tengok lagi baby.
-masa baby keluar rasa lega yang teramat sangatla. Lepas tu kena keluarkan uri kemudian jahit. Dah penat tu ingatkan bius la jahitkan rupanya tak. Ha menahanla lagi lepas tu. Dekat sejam jugakla. Lepas doktor tu dah siap cuci segala lama jugak tunggu dalam bilik tu dengan lapar dahaga teramat barula Que datang bawak baby. Itula kali pertama aku tatap Kaliq Rafael sebab kitaorang tak pernah buat 3D ke pape kan.
-kemudian dia tolak ke wad dapatla jumpa dengan mak long dan ibu Que sekejap. Malam tu memang aku dengan Kaliq je. Bila aku tengok Que dengan Kaliq memang rasa nak menangis tengok betapa hapynya dia dapat anak.
-malam tu aku tak dapat tido sebab sakit kemudian belajar bagi susu. Selebihnya aku banyak tatap muka Kaliq. Rasanya adala sejam aku tido.
-esoknya awal pagi lagi Que dah datang to pick up my parents then petang tu dah boleh keluar. Walaupun kelas 3 servis tip top bayaran alhamdulilah rm16 sahaja.
-by the time I'm posting this Kaliq yang lahir pada 13 december 2011 pada berat 3.15kg pada jam 7.55 malam dah pun masuk hari ke 29!berat pun dah naik dan makin comel!lots more to share soon!

Welcome To The World Our Son Kaliq Rafael

 

our precious lil Kaliq was born on 13 /12/11 at 7.55 pm at 3.15 kg Hospital Serdang. we felt so blessed .alhamdulilah